'If you were mine..'

'I'd be your everything and you'd the only thing that I would ever need If you were mine, I would tell everyone that you are the only on that I could ever want. Everything I dreamed about Everything that I talked about One thing I can't live without I wanna get closer to you Can't stand being far away Knowing that you don't feel the same way watching her bring tears to your eyes. -- All words I sing about All the letters I write about is when I get closer to you I know that there is someone else, but she's only thinking of herself Doesn't make any sense for you to be lonely...I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want.'

Amanda D. Made me feel so much better today. (: We rode the bus back home--together and I told her all about my day with you and she told me that maybe you are starting to realize that you may feel something for me too. Haha, she told me not to jinx anything, but what the hell....jinxing is bs for all I know. You just have to stay positive!

HE HAS GOT TO BE THE ONE! Like really. I know I sound stupid and childish, but I can't picture myself with anyone else, BUT him. It must be. MUST. Hahaa; you guys ar probably getting bored of what he did to me and what we did so I'll just skip those parts and leave it for my word doc. :D

THREE FUCKING MORE WEEKS OF THIS PLACE and then I can spend the entire summer dwandling around the city with my retsis (: I plan to take her everywher and teach her how to take the bus and whatever. Just give her a taste of freedom. I know I would've killed for that when I was her age @ a private school and with my parents.. I don't think it's fair that she gets so much stress and pressure. Yes, she uses the phone and goes over at times, but WHO HASN'T?? Yes, I think that she's a slut and a big ol' hoe for having two different boyfriends in less than a week...=___= loong story..I really thought that she would follow in my footsteps that I so carefully paved for me. She does loook up to me. But somtimes, I just wished that she would listen a little more and be less free-spirited. My parents wouldn't understand cause to them they see her as the "baby". She IS the youngest, but she isn't a child anymore. She's thirteen! I had to teach her everything. My parents pretty much gave up after putting all their effort on my older siter and I. So I guess that would explain why she is like she is. <3>