Standby Girl

Ever since I could remember, I was the "standby girl" in a guy-I-liked's life. He always had a girlfriend--but she was never I. I dunno, I have this problem of getting STUCK onto a guy too long. The last one lasted about...three years. Longest one up to date. The second longest was about a year and a half...but this new one..it better not turn into these infatuation-series. Cause if it did; well it would just suck. I do feel a connection you know, from my view, but from his view it's there--IT'S HARD TO TELL! Im sorry but it's hard to tell when it comes to him. I like how he Always notices the smallest detail about me. Like when he doesn't see me wear my watch (I ALWAYS wear my handy dandy watch), he'll go "Where's your (points to wrist)" And I just pull up my sleeve and he goes :ooohhh. Yeah, I really hope we have finance together together (speak of the devil...just imed me) so mhm (: it just makes me feel good--smallest things from the whiteout to the waterbottle cap..which i threw away on accident to the nickel to writing his signature smiley on my pencil bag. Sighh HE WENT TO MY SWIMMEET..which I didn't get to swim in due to my monthly presents. He had to leave earlyy; mommy called him? lol mama's boyy. He wore a cap and got his haircut!! and wore red jacket VERY ATTRACTIVE. but let's see here; he's really like me--cares a lot about appearance (: got a handshake down! LOL got his PHONE taken away! PSHh not sly!! Umm we are the same race of chinese--taiSANese. He can speak it! I'm hella jealous...and he can speak canto, mandarin, and english..(duh) but that's so cool! Plays piano. He LOVES cars! Like me! I have always had a secret obsession with carrs (Shh!) Don't say anything! Like I've been able to identify A NY type of car on the road since like the 5th grade. My sister and my dad got me into that. I wanted a Lexus Rx300-330 back then but I now crave for a Mercedes C-class sedann SEXY<3> tree I think so too. People say he matches my height. Dude, I'm not even that tall 5'5'...no well actually around my friends--I am considered tall so I look "tall" but I'm really not. I'm just average. I hope he doesn't see past me cause he already FUCKING ASKED ANOTHER GIRL OUT TO OUR PROMM--SHIT prom is ONE YEAR awaay. Is it that necessary to ask her out THAT early?! So kua zhang!!! totally; I hope that it'll be me since it isn't "forsure" yet. But I just hate this feeling--I shall add more onto this PMS!! (post more soon! lol...)

Juicy Apple

Soo, he gives me a wonderful nickel of course, cuts his hair the way I told him to, and will wear his new shoes for me on friday along with his matching* hoody (: cooool huh? HE'S DOING FINANCE ACADEMY !!!! and yeahh his daddy got cancer...D: sadd oh what would i do with/out him in history?! probably sleep but i really do like him for HIM other people dont' seem him as i do.