Once upon a time...we were friends...

...in middleschool. We were actually---all 4 of us---the BEST of the BESTEREST of friends. People actually envied it. I miss it. You can say that. I see all of you guys' pictures up on facebook and it makes me envy that I don't go to school with you guys anymore---after how many years? Like 10. 9 to be exact. And now it's all over. You guys's lives seem so good! Too good to be true..to be exact. Remember ONE thing when you see that your friends or other people's lives SEEM better than yours: the grass always seems greener on the either side. . A very wise saying. Interpretation: You may think that your life 'stinks' or whatever but you don't know how that person's REAL life is like. I for one, have seen all of it unravel. I thought that SOME girls I knew and admired really HAD IT ALL, good grades, boyfriends, bought whatever they wanted. But then you go to their house and you're like WOW this is so great! And then...just when you think it couldn't get anymore perfect...drama with family happens. And you understand why they must put up this veil. I guess you can say I've seen all three of these ladie's veils unraveled. But 'at the time' I could understand and relate and TALK TO THEM about whatever. But now...not so much. It's so awkward. Like I really want to know them again. I wanna know what they're up to. But it seems as though they won't let me in anymore. I don't want to give up. I know I'm not. I guess it's just been...THAT long that we haven't spent time with one another. But when we are together it's like WOW I really miss this. Life is like that---they bring us closer and CLOSER to the ones we are meant to be friends with. We were all split for a reason---those two girlies were put together for a reason---it's just cause fate wanted us to be this way. It MAY lead to something in the future. And I can barely wait for that. But for now, I just have to sit and wait. Be patient. One day...I guess this is what you consider 'normal' when you haven't been in class/school with them for about 3 years now. I will really miss them. I'll always be there for them no matter what. I love them all very much (: TheOriginals, Ohsoawesome7's, &...the 'mean' girls

Changed..

I started subscribing to this girl named 'bubzbeauty' on youtube for a couple of months now. I just watched her True Perception of Beauty video and it was VERY inspiring. One very memorable quote that she stated was, "What makes you think that you can judge someone else, and what makes you think that the other person gives a 'crap' about what you think of them?" I've learned to not hate on anyone just cause of one small thing. Let anyone think what they want of me because it's really my opinion of myself that matters.Try to create a more hate-less world for others. Think of how much courage if one has a 'bold look/unique look'. I'm going to avoid all those who come with 'Drama' or who want it..and I will not talk about ANYONE. Only mentioning the good. I've learned to take the HIGHER route; and keep my head high when others oppose against me. There's no point in hating on anyone because it's such a waste of time. And there's not a worse-er feeling than holding a grudge. I'm not saying that I'm going to let things fly and become naive. NO WAY. IWhat I'm trying to say is that I won't dwell on things tooo long. I will just glimpse at them and if they come back..they come back! LIVE but don't forget. Our straightener came in the mail today (: hoooray! I watched the 'Remembering Michael Jackson' screening ALL DAY, which caused me to stay home D: BUT THAT was so worth it. It shows how we all totaly got way in over our heads about this whole entire thing. RIGHT AFTER his daughter, Paris, spoke a few words...I totally broke down and REFUSED to listen to anymore tabloids. Because if the tabloids claim that MJ was some 'maniac or molester' THAN HOW IN HELL did his children turn out so damn down to earth and charming? Yeaah, that's what I thought. Just this one video changed my views on every celebrity. It must be really hard to live that kind of lifestyle. I admire them for it though; always will. Thanks MichaelJackson; for opening up all the doors.