I've been---Idle

Perhaps I'm just playing a game with myself here. IDK. Or maybe he's just playing around with me? He tells me all the bad things he does because...that's the agreement we made. I can't wear certain shoes and I was like 'told on' by one of his friends and he told him* and he talked to me. He finally imed me yesterday...informing me that he drunk and that it was 'fun'. ): I don't like seeing him do all these things because it just makes me wonder even more if he really means everything he says to me. like I don't know....'love you'? Well, even if you don't mean it or if you TRULY mean it. Here's my reply to you, bestie---i love you...(too). I don't love you as a friend cause love, to me, is a pretty big word. If I ever told anyone I 'loved' them--it's because I truly meant it at the moment or because well...we have that special bond. We have both---a special bond and momentS. So no; I don't love you as a friend. I love you as a bestie. Nothing you do will ever change that. Ever.

Am I forgotten?

I feel as though my 'bestfriend' has forgotten about me. We don't talk. We haven't spoken since last Tuesday...I admit we've had a weird friendship since the start. Maybe that was a sign....but I was being naive & just ignored it. Is this still considered a friendship labeled 'Bffl'? I just came back from vacation with my family & maan...I managed to get my parents to call me 'fat' over the last 3 days...perhaps I am fat. I have gotten 'fatter' but still...I don't think I deserve to be called that. I know that they just say that because they care about me, but it's really hard. My parents are Asian. They don't understand metabolism. Mine's is slower than my sisters. They buy all these fattty foods. and well...when i can't find anything to eat that's healthy...there's fatty food. Well now, finally, they've done something about it. I know I'll lose some soon, & I'm trying hard.

Haha..soo I'm going to sound like a retard buut....I've fell in love with ANOTHER camera...I can't tell you which one cause it's superr like uberly rare and it's hard to get your hands on. x) i know I just got a new camera like 2 months ago and that's like the top of the line for the Sony Shoot/Capture/Slim category BUTT the one I saw was like OUT OF THIS WORLD 'cool' like forreal. It's the awesomest camera. You can see yourself, it's waterproof, videocamera, and camera. The megapixels aren't as high as I would like them to be...I'm saving my job money up for sure now! Cause I've gotten even more nailpolish, and clothes soo I"m good...for now ;). My sister is going to her Washington DC trip so if I get this I'm sure she'll love it for her trip..cause her camera suckss sooo bad. bleh I feel greedy but HEY! it's WATERPROOF! Never had a waterproof one before! Where I live, it's profoundly known to rain Heavy, and I like swimming soo why not??!! Agreed?