I love you so much that it consumes me..

I never want to leave your side again. We're just friends & that may just be all that we will ever be. I've learned that I'm okay with that. I can't MAKE you love me back. But I want to be there with you and for you during this rough time. You are going through a lot. And I'll be the one to say "I'll Stand by You" I hope you'll say the same. You need me the most right now---and me being selfish isn't going to do any favors for the both of us. I just want you to be happy. Like today! I hope whatever we talked about in class helped you out. While we were passing notes; I confessed to you that I am worried about you and that I care for you because you are my friend.. You wrote a letter to me=______= I can't stay mad. I can't--not at you at least. This year has felt like a sail boat....as soon as it sails away---all my worries and fears will sail along with it. I'm happy. I'm content. I'm fine. You draw pretty well I must say! AND YOUR HANDWRITING! Maan, it's seriously improved since last year...haha You treat me different now. Like seriously....when I didn't see you in class when I walked in I thought to myself..."man I must've said something that must've offended him..." and then you like gave me a heart attack when you walked in. I was actually quite shocked. I thought that maybe you didn't want to face reality again...And then you pull my desk next to yours & I insisted that I could just pull it over myself..but instead; you keep pulling me closer and closer to you...(simile?) Sorry if I was mean when I said that you could keep your gum for yourself after you were done eating...(: it's just that your friend has hella bad aim and threw it on the ground....so I didn't want it anymore. DAMN; I forgot the notes in my locker D: ugh. BUT HEEY! THREE DAY WEEKEND; I can't really complain can I ??

Monday: Shopping with Winn&Momm. We haven't done this since Christmas (: I have helllllla shit to do so I may not blog for a whiile ): Hopefully this will be sufficient! I promise I'll make it up once I'm baack.