Event-FULL day!

Fawkk; N O W it turns sunny?!

Soo this morning...Tree walked into class a bit laate, and since our seats were arranged into "tables", my back was facing the door--and he hugged like my 'neck' ? O.o. Mhmm. I know. So like then--we both have our homerooms on the 3rd floor and he started talking about "holes in our pants"....from my HUGE waterbottle to that topic...PERVERT. (hao se) I know. So I kept insisting that girls had 'two' and he said 'three'...and he was right cause I was being a dumbass. He held my book for me and took it up those 6 flights of stairs :D . Pluuss, he held my 'huge' waterbottle..

He's fun to flirt with, but we'll just see how far that will last. right?

On to Apple...ugh. WE HAD OUR PRESENTATION! & Russell seemed to like it! :D fuck him and his fucking bad habits, which he won't telll me what they are. BUT, how am I supposed to help him if he won't let me?! Let her* help you...can you do that? Cause I swore to myself that after this project was over, I'd let you go and fly. BUT YOU WON'T LET GO. You just keep pushing harder and harder to the fact where I'm crammed between two..like now. FCUK YOU, because you can drive before I can, and fck you for all the shit you made me go through & fcki you for polluting my mind with the idea that there may be a chance. MAY be. You know today, wen I walking towards the doors with Henley & he asked me where Whoreman was, I turned back to see if HE* was there and you were looking at me dead in the eye. LIKE, seriously?!

I like talking about Tree better :D. After chem, I see samson, my sea man*, and I say "SAMSON!" and tree looks at me lol..and I just go Hi Branden. and he says hi back. He seemed kinda pissed xD butt ohwell. I didn't even see him!.

It's hard when your heart is like a splitend, it goes out in two+ directions, making it harder to choose which side you should pull towards .

So some freshmangirl got some hate for me. And all I have to say is FCK you too! Just jealous* over what you and your "bff" have?! I thought you would totally understand! She and I just totally clicked and ther's nothing to hate about that (: In fact, you should be happy for your friend and tell her that you're glad she's making some friends--especially older ones! I can't deal with your BS, and if you can't take me being there when you're there, just fcking WALK AWAY cause I'm not going ANYWHERE, hunn.

haha...and there's this MERCY girl who wants to "beat me up" jsut cause i made my LoVee cry...like seriously?! EVERYONE CRIES WHEN THEY HAVE FIGHTS WITH THEIR BFF! Shiiit, and now I'm the bad guy? SHE makes me cry too! You dont see me tellling other people about our shit, my lovee. It's between you and I. And maybe it's too hard for you to hold it all in? Haha. Funny, cause when you're around me you seem to hold it all in just fine. So waht?! You found out about duckie's drinking problems---WHO GIVES A SHIT?! I found out MONTHS ago! She quit and she was just probably having a light drink with friends. You don't even know the FUCKING STORY and ya gonna go spread shit to the girl who wants to beat me? Dree wouldn't want that and you know it! She doesn't want that bitch fucking with her life problems. It's not even your story to tell! So just stay out of it. You know she's different and you know she's probably not going to be the way she was--so JUST LET IT ALL GO and just enjoy the limited times you have with her--like I did today. Don't take alll this shit for granted. I would LOVE to see your friend actually have the courage to beat me up. Her size dont' intimidate one fucking bit. In fact--I'm like a good 3-4 inches taller; she wider. I don't give a shit. If she were actually going to pound me, well -- Karma's a bitch. I don't think I deserve to get hit just for making someone cry...over OUR business. You must really not have a life since you like beating people up :D Which is fine by me, cause I don't hate you or like you I just go with the flow. But youu-have to take it out with physical movements. Maybe it makes you feel superior? I don't know. But hey! The shiit you hear from her, just may be as fake as the real her is. So hold your breath and make sure that it's all true before you regret. I think that you, my lovee, care way too much. It's really her life now--and you can't control it for her. Yeahh, you're trying to be the 'good' friend. I get it. But it's not going to work. I'm just saying. We've drifted apart SO much. I don't even know why I love you, but I do. And it pisses me off because you got a bitch hating on me for your past hate for me. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY YOU LIKE HER SO MUCH, cause SHE'S the one with the problems and she's the one you should stp talking to.

Man I let out a lot. (:

Thanks for listening to my bullshit <3