I've been---Idle

Perhaps I'm just playing a game with myself here. IDK. Or maybe he's just playing around with me? He tells me all the bad things he does because...that's the agreement we made. I can't wear certain shoes and I was like 'told on' by one of his friends and he told him* and he talked to me. He finally imed me yesterday...informing me that he drunk and that it was 'fun'. ): I don't like seeing him do all these things because it just makes me wonder even more if he really means everything he says to me. like I don't know....'love you'? Well, even if you don't mean it or if you TRULY mean it. Here's my reply to you, bestie---i love you...(too). I don't love you as a friend cause love, to me, is a pretty big word. If I ever told anyone I 'loved' them--it's because I truly meant it at the moment or because well...we have that special bond. We have both---a special bond and momentS. So no; I don't love you as a friend. I love you as a bestie. Nothing you do will ever change that. Ever.